” My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into divers temptations; knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.”
“Again! It’s happening again! I thought my gay feelings are gone but today it happened again. Why, oh why? Until when?” These words and the stomach smashing pain are probably known to you already. They were a part of my daily life, for a long time.
The formula to overcome is in the words above: Count it all joy. Instead of throwing a pity party, look up, thank God that He is with you and remember His promises. One of the things I used to say in those moments was: “I know You are with me. No matter the illusion, I am being renewed!”. Infuse faith thoughts in your thinking. Start being happy. Feeling of happiness will come after the thoughts of happiness. And while you are working patience, you are becoming perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
When a person decides to build up strength and change her life, instead of sleeping till 11am, she gets up at 7 and goes to run, flexes her body and builds her muscles. After 2 days her body screams “STOP, you are hurting me. I must sleep!” But she made a decision and she doesn’t stop. The third day she gets up again at 7 and does the whole thing over and over again. And again. While her muscles are screaming for rest, do we call that person a pretender? Is she fake because she does not obey the pain in her body? Or do we cheer her on, to persist as long as it is needed? And the day comes when her energy is up, strength is all over her, inside and out, and she lives the new life.
“Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run, that ye may obtain.”
1st Corinthians 9:24
No, it does not say here that others will obtain the prize but you maybe won’t. It says that YOU run EXPECTING to win and to receive the prize. Let you attitude be “YES!” and not “Ah, whatever.”
Keep running and you WILL obtain!
For further read: 2nd Peter 1:4-8; James 1:5-8; James 1:13-18; James 1:22; James 4:1-10;